Screw me!

I duno wad will happen to my life next.
It freaks me out...
For all da decisions i've made...i freaked myself out too.
I duno whr will i be heading to...i duno wad will happen and wad's da consequences.
I juz live in da i-duno-life now.
Crapzz~!
Being an adult is driving me nuts...
I'm doing thgs tht adults do but i feel like i'm still thinking and acting like a kiddo.
Screw me!!!
Dooshh~

F.M.L.

Feels like ages since i last updated.
Well...me ish buzzy wif me work luuu~
No choice...this is wad i like...
I like my job..juz dat it's really driving me nuts at times, esp wif da MISS-SO-HOT-BUT-NOT-SO-FRIENDLY and certain clients.
Plus, i hate travelling by public transport coz wif my fun size & fun height...i needa wear heels so tht i look better~~!!
Imagine i come home every nite juz can't wait to reach my doorstep & take off da heels.
Da pain in killing me! FTW.
Sighs...i want a bloody car~
Another thing is..i'm kinda tired wif my life.
I'm blur & confused most of da times.
I can't stand firm on my ground & make a right decisionfor myself.
I really hate myself. FML.
I'm feeling so insecure.
But wad can i do?
Life goes on.
I've come to this stage where thr's no turning back.
All i can do is....haihhhhhhhhh~~~

All i can say is....
it was fan-tas-tic...mind balsting~!!! xD

Time flies~

Time really flies huh?
It's already coming to d end of October d~
Well well...wad can i say?
I'm all free now! Wheee~
Juz finished my exam yesterday~!
It went well!
Coz i studied hard!
Thou i can't get an A for sure...coz i screwed up my mid-term badly...even i scored full marks for final, i still can't get an A.

Nvm laaa~ at least i did all my best for da final ^^
Gonna start internship soon..in a few days time, to be exact!
Gah gah gahhh~
It's Leo Burnett!
Wheee~ got into my dream company
But i duno larrr....it cud b tough!
Blehhh~~~
Meanwhile, i needa partayyyy & playyy kao kao!
My fun list:
1. Movie
2. Club
3. Sing k
4. Shop
5. Sunway Lagoon *but nobody wants to go, i suppose*

Lappin' my new piercing xD

I've got myself another peircing on my right ear!
Wheee~
It was spontaneous thou~
Coz Mr.Benji Wong suddenly thought of getting a piercing one day when we were yam cha-ing.
He cudn't decide where to pierce.
Well, when i heard it, i got tempted.
I wanted to pierce my ear...but i cudn't decide which part of my ear.
I wanted to get it on da day itself but he said da next day.
After dat, i nvr really tot abt it anymore..coz i tot he cud hv juz forgotten abt it by da next day.
Da next morning ....whn i was sleeping...my phone rang~
Doink...Benji Wong...
He said...eh, wanna get piericing anot? Get ready now...
I was like...=.=...oh okay..
Reached Leisure Mall, still couldn't decide which part to pierce.
So we went for movie 1st.
Watched Surrogates. Not bad, btw.
After movie, went to da shop.
I still couldn't decide.
Then he said, we both pierced on upper ear part.
His on left, mine on right.
I said...u go 1st.
After he pierced...i freaked out...wanted to back off coz it looked pain.
Blahhh~!
But dat fuckin' bugger pushed me & forced me to sit down & before i cud grab his hand steadily, piak...done d!
Doinkk...so yeah...dat's how da two retards got their ears pierced.
LOL.

I don't want to know...

I used to be curious about everything...wanted to be part of what-so-ever that happened.
But for now...not anymore.
I don't know and i don't want to know, anymore.
Recently, i figured that the more stuff i know, the more troubles and deep shit i got myself into.
Enough is enough.
I think it's time to get myself out of all these.
Live my life and mind my own business.
Pfft~
So...give me my peace.
Thank you.

What did i miss out?

It's so irnoic...
I finally get what i wanted but it always seems like something is missing.
I'm not satisfied...
I thought i could be happy...but i'm not really now.
How it feels to be in love?
I totally have forgotten about it...
How it feels to be very anxious and having the butterflies in the stomach when i'm about to see that someone special?
I don't feel it anymore...
The special feeling of i used to feel when being kissed or cuddled...
They are no longer there.
Everything just seem so normal, so typical...
Is it just me?
Is it because i'm the kinda person that gets bored easily or i'm having too much of expecations?
I don't know where did i go wrong or what did i miss out.
Hrmmmmm~

Good day

Yesterday was a good day...today not so bad also lar~
Ngek~!
i'm glad everyone is fine..
I've been worried for close than 1 week.
I can't mention what happened...but, i'm glad.
I'm glad to see them back~ T.T
I'm thankful they are all fine.
I was so scared...a lot of things went into my mind for the past 1 week.
Yesterday, when i finally met one of them, he's a close friend of mine,
i was thankful and glad enough for being able to sit down, talked and had dinner with him.
It was a blessing.
And just now after dinner, i met another one of them...
I was happy...really happy to see him.
And d other one was chatting with me in FB....he told me he missed the days teasing me.
Awwww...for that moment, i realized too how much i miss those teasing & laughing.
Hope everything will change, they will change and they will be good.
I heart those buddies of mine.

Pretentious...

I never thought i would have to stuck in this situation.
I thought i could really be happy...but do i?
I know one day i'll be tired and sick of all these...and either one of us will walk away.
Why would things have to be 'hidden'?
I thought i'm cool with it...but now, i'm getting tired.
If everthing has to be so pretentious, then what's the point after all?

Things r complicated...but i kinda like it xD